The Moment of Truth

This morning I went in for my blood work for Beta #1, then acupuncture, then to a baby sprinkle and finally made it home at 12:30. I noticed the answer machine blinking so I hit play while getting stuff out for lunch…and sure enough..right on the answering machine was my nurse telling me that my test was positive!! Praise the Lord!! She said my Beta is 201, which she says is very good! I go in Monday for another check on my HCG level.

I’m still in disbelief, but soooo relieved too! I’ll have my levels check 3-4 times, and then in a 1 and a 1/2 to 2 weeks I’ll go in for my first sonogram 🙂 That is when we will find out if I am pregnant with 1 or 2 🙂

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The Last Days

Today is Thursday, April 18th. One of two things are true today…I’m 4 weeks pregnant or I’m going to start my period soon 😦 I have no idea which one is true. I’m really hoping it is the first one. Remember the symptoms I wrote about a  week ago…I was looking over my discharge instructions from the transfer, and it says that I could any of those symptoms and it wouldn’t mean anything. Tiredness, bloating, etc. all of that can occur because of what my body has gone through. I never did have the implantation bleeding that I had when I got pregnant with Jerry, but it doesn’t always happen every time. So even that is not necessarily an indicator that I’m not pregnant. I just have to wait and see if my period comes or for the pregnancy test on Monday. I hate not knowing, but I’m also scared to find out. I’m scared to find out that I’m not pregnant. I was reading some blog posts from two years ago, and the one time IVF did work for us, I had similar feelings of anxiety or fear. I just hope the next few days go by quickly.

In other news, my parents have been building outdoor stairs for us. The side of our house is a very big hill and we have renters that rent our basement. The steps that they had to walk on every day were not very sturdy, so my Dad decided to use this week to replace them. The stairs are looking amazing. And there will be a planter area for a vegetable garden. I’m sooo excited about this!! I tried to grow some vegetables on my deck last year and it didn’t work too well. But this year, I have high hopes for some yummy home grown vegetables.

Tough Stuff

So I was just checking out some dates and it looks like if I’m not pregnant then I’ll start my period between this Thursday and Saturday. I’m not sure why my pregnancy test is scheduled so far out. It isn’t supposed to be until Monday the 22nd. But I should definitely know for sure before then. I just hate this waiting period. It is much more challenging this time than I thought it would be. I mean just look at the time! It is 4:42 am. I’ve been up since 4:00. This used to happen to me all the time when we were going through things to get pregnant with Jerry. Thankfully this is my first sleepless night. I must get it from my parents. They are staying with us now and both of them mentioned how they couldn’t sleep the night before. I think our renters aren’t sleeping either…I keep hearing coughing and sneezing coming from the basement 😦

So I’ve been going through training to be a licensed Kindermusik educator. Kindermusik develops curriculum for music and movement classes for 0-7 year olds. I decided to do this since I’m around moms of children this age all the time. Seems to be a natural step for me since I have a little boy in this age range. As part of my training I have to figure out my schedule and when I will begin teaching classes. Ha…ya right! Going through IVF makes it impossible to plan long term. So I put in my answer that I would start June 5th if I’m pregnant now, but if I’m not, and I have to go through this again, I won’t be able to start until mid-late June. I just don’t think it will be a good idea for me to start teaching something new while in the middle of a cycle. Let’s just hope I am pregnant now 🙂 And then I won’t have to worry about any of that.

I don’t like wishing time away….but I am looking forward to this week being over with! I am going back to teaching this week, so I’m hoping that will make it go by faster. I have a baby sprinkle to go to on Friday. Not sure if that is a good idea or not 😦 If I start my period on Thursday, I don’t know that I’ll be up for celebrating someone’s pregnancy the next day. (a baby sprinkle means that it is a small shower because it is her third child). Yesterday we went to church and it was alot harder than I thought it would be. I haven’t struggled like that since Jerry was born. I just saw several women who have little ones Jerry’s age who are already pregnant. One in particular woman who has a boy Jerry’s age is pregnant with her 7th. I know I should be happy for these people…I just wish it was that easy for us. People that can get pregnant on their own just have no idea how good they have it! I know I shouldn’t have the “woe is me” attitude and that God has a reason why he chose me to go through this, but that is one of the reasons I have a blog. To let other women who are struggling to know they aren’t alone.

Symptoms

Well, I’m in the dreaded 2WW (two week wait). I made an apt. for my first beta (pg test) for Monday April 22nd. Still over a week away. Yikes! In the meantime, my mind tries to interpret all these little symptoms I am having: bloated…I seriously look 3 months along…so if I’m not pregnant, then I need to start a rigorous ab workout. Light headed…my acupuncturist thinks I need more iron possibly.  Tired….I’m really taking it easy, not working, not doing any housework…but I still feel wiped out at different times throughout the day. But unfortunately I haven’t had any implantation bleeding yet. That is what I am hoping will happen very soon…but we will have to wait and see.

Still waiting….

Transfer Day (yesterday)

So sorry that this is a day late, but everything happened very quickly. My Transfer was yesterday at 1:15. I had my acupuncture before and after the transfer. They transferred 2  8 cell embyros, which is perfect! They are still watching the other three, but as of yesterday, 2 of the 3 had stopped growing.

I was on bedrest until about 1:40 today. All is good. My MOPS moms are bringing meals for us, and my parents are here to help with Jerry and keeping the house so I can relax and not move around too much 🙂

My pregnancy test will be on April 22nd. Yikes. That will be a long two weeks, but I feel really positive about this cycle. I could definitely be pregnant with twins right now. It feels so unreal…but yet very possible.

Retrieval Day is Set

Whew….what a day 🙂 Today we bought a new (new to us, but used) refrigerator for our basement apartment. Everything worked out really smoothly, but instead of grocery shopping at lunchtime I went and bought a fridge and instead of fixing and eating dinner at dinner time, I helped manage the moving and install of the fridge. Like I said, it all worked out great, but just made for a crazy day. So here I am finally sitting at the computer after 10:00 PM, finally able to update you on my trigger instructions. 

I am triggering tonight. Woohoo! My dear friend, Lisa is coming to give me my Novarel shot at 11:15 PM. It is pretty late, but it is alright. I am still a bit wired from a crazy day. I go in on Wednesday at 9:45 for a 11:15 egg retrieval. Everyone is really positive about my follicle number and sizes. It is looking really good. Hoping for 10 or 11 mature eggs. Our record so far is 9 mature eggs. Double digits would be incredible since I only have one ovary. Then we just pray that God’s hand will protect our little embryos and grow them into blastocysts. 

I would say good night…but mine is far from over 🙂

Day 11 Monitoring

This morning I thought for certain I would be receiving trigger instructions; however, of the 9 follicles measured, only 2 are greater than 18. My RE wants to wait until there are three greater than 18 mm before triggering. This is actually really good. This means I will have surgery on Wednesday instead of Tuesday. This is good because my husband can not take a full day off work on Tuesday, but he can on Wednesday. Also the Adventure Academy class I teach is on Tuesday, so I will be able to teach that this week and only have a sub for the following week. Yay!! So glad this is all working out so well. 

This cycle is still going really well. I feel that since we’ve gone through this for a 4th time, our RE has really been able to perfect my dosages so we can get the best number of eggs. I’m hoping for 10 or 11. That would be great. This would definitely increase our rate of success. 

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